I'm sure no one cares haha. not many people i know are on DA anymore. how sad!!! screw the art world and welcome to the camera whore, digital friends, computer social world. even though i am a part of it as well, haha i remembered DA and realized that i've forgotten how much fun it is to post art and connect with other artists.

well i'm back now and i am going to be posting things real soon! i havn't posted art in ages. my style has changed a bit.

also...this guy is worth checking out : [link]

he happens to be the person that makes me MOST happiest. ever. he does photography (mostly nature) and writes.

anyways if any friends are on here still, let me know!! i need some DA survivors.

i need to get out of my house. it's driving me crazy. i am driving myself crazy, also.

well i am reading the sevenwaters trilogy. it is about these magical islands of ireland i think. well anyways, its all celtic and the author uses real references (only the story line is false).
i am becoming more and more interested in the 'old ways' the books talk about and i feel myself more and more attracted to otherworldly things and other countries.
america has nothing for me! but i feel bound by family. i couldn't just leave them.
maybe a trip? spiritual journey? i hope not far in the future.

i believe i was born with the 'old ways' of olden times, in me, i've always felt it.
like i was living the wrong life, in the wrong time and place.

maybe i'm just crazy? haha. maybe..

i have a new sense of freedom. i am starting to feel hopeful again..i want to journey. somewhere. begin...life. peacefully. forget my past, and on to the future!

well i am alive.

bri and i took a train to california! it was so wonderful. we got to sit up in this scenic upperfloor train car and see all the states we travelled through. our favorite was new mexico. they had all kinds of cob houses >.< i am going to build one, someday!! maybe in a hill? hehe and bri bought me a wooden flute in alberque! i just do not know how to play it.

but i do miss maine, alot. when we come back we will find a cheap place to live in, and build a life together. i miss maine because it is my home, i miss my dad and my mom and sister so we will probably be leaving a little sooner.

i believe the only time i want to travel is to see my aunts and uncle, and to go to europe. i think i would definatly want to visit europe for a much longer time because that is where my ancestors are from (ireland).

my uncle del, when he was a librarian (that is not the reason why i want to be a librarian by the way haha it was a total coincidence) he compiled a 'cain family tree' and i read it. it was very interesting...i learned about the irish clan my family came from, as well as my family coat of arms. i badly want to read my mom's side of the family tree. the 'lapeirre' side...they come from portugal,england and france, which i am sure, is just as interesting.

well enough blabbering on, i don't know whether people still know i exist, haha, but i do miss everyone! i really do. if you are close to my heart you know me, and i am still here. i just have some hard growing-up to do, as well as spiritual journey-ing. but i hope to be back very soon! i need to connect with the forest as well as my family and friends. it's all in my heart and none of it is here with me

ah well i enjoy vacationing while it lasts!